But I don’t want to go in the cart!
Hello, little blog. My, you’re looking a bit dusty.
So yeah. One of the “rules of blogging” is that you’re never supposed to make a post about why you haven’t been blogging when you drop off the face of the Earth for a few weeks. I guess you’re just supposed to pick up and move on and hope nobody noticed that you’ve been gone. Well, that’s not how I roll. I figure if you’re interested, or bored, or crazy enough to read this here blog thang, you deserve an explanation of why things have been very quiet in the Panzercow Bunker since mid-August.
First of all, there’s the work stuff. I probably shouldn’t admit this, but I do most of my blogging at work when things are slow; when I’m at home in front of the computer, generally, I’m either gaming or performing other activities that don’t require a brain, since a full day of work plus a couple hours of my daughter destroys any brain I’ve got. Let’s just say that things have not been slow at my job over the past month. They have, in fact, been pretty damn crazy. Logged on from home at 1:30 in the morning crazy. Working Saturdays crazy. No time for me to write posts crazy.
Then, there is the Great Circle of Gaming Life. I don’t know if anybody else works like this, but my interest in any recrecational activity, especially a computer game, is very cyclical. I’ll get something and hit it hard for a period of time–a couple of weeks, maybe a month, even longer if it really grabs me. But sooner or later, I’ll get tired of it and move on to something else. Eventually, if I like it, I may come back to it.
I’m split several different ways on my game interest. There’s WoW, of course, which has been the Big Kahuna since February 2005. There’s EVE Online, my other MMO. But the Second Biggest Kahuna, for almost six years now, is flight simulation–Microsoft Flight Simulator 2004, and a couple weeks back, I bought and installed Flight Simulator X (the latest and greatest). From the time I was but a wee little armored car, I’ve been a frustrated fantasy pilot. Airplanes and aviation have always fascinated me. I know way more about them than I should considering I’ve been off the ground maybe eight times in my 43 years on the planet I have 71 gigabytes of addons installed for FS2004. Yeah, I’m an addict. I haven’t been doing much with it this year, but lately, the jones has come back.
Tack on to this the fact that my adorable wife bought me Bioshock for our 8th anniversary a couple months ago. Normally I’m not much on shooters, but that game really hooked me in. The artwork, the graphics, the voice acting, the story, all of them are great. Then she bugged me to try out her copy of Mass Effect…and there went more late nights. Again, stunning visuals, great dialogue and voice acting, and a killer story. And honestly, saving the galaxy surrounded by hot babes didn’t hurt. (Get over here, Ashley. Booyah.)
Third, there’s WoW itself. I wouldn’t call what I’m feeling “burnout.” That’s too strong a word. It’s not even really “boredom.” I still raid with The Anvil and have fun doing it, and we’ve recently shifted to a four-tank rotation system that means some weeks I’ll be MT, some weeks I’ll be OT, some weeks I’ll be laughably attempting to DPS. We haven’t headed into the Coliseum yet, but we will starting next week, and I’m looking forward to it. No, call what I’m feeling “pre-burnout” if you will; that feeling that yeah, I really should be grinding Hodir faction on Beltar or working on getting Linedan his third faction Champion title or leveling Latisha past 51, but…meh. I can’t work up the enthusiasm to see the same content again for the umptysquillionth time.
And finally, there’s the personal stuff. I can’t and won’t go too deep into it because, well, it’s personal. But I can say that the Panzercow family has been dealing with some issues. Nothing earth-shattering–no divorce, no health problems, nothing like that. We’re worn down from the little day-to-day shit that’ll pile up and bury you, really. Money issues, raising a kid issues, the “fun” of being in a town where you don’t know very many people and trying to do everything with no family and almost no backup. Some days it feels like the two of us are trying to two-man raid content and we’re wiping repeatedly. Deal with that for a couple years and it’ll mess up anybody, and that’s where we are now. It’s not a state of mind that’s particularly conducive to creativity. My writing’s suffered, my roleplaying’s suffered, and my creative output in general has suffered. It’s hard for me to bring USDA Grade A Choice snark when I’m so mentally bludgeoned down that I can’t even think straight, y’know?
So that’s why things have been quiet. And no, you don’t get a TL;DR version. You knew going in that I ramble, deal with it.
My promise to you, the folks who read Achtung Panzercow, is that I’ll do my best to keep good, useful, funny content coming out, even if it’s at a somewhat reduced pace for a while. I’m not leaving blogging, and I’m not leaving WoW. I have a lot still to do here–more So You Want to Be a Prot Warrior, more on the Latisha Experiment, more on everything. I might even broaden my horizons and do a few posts on other things, who knows.
Thanks for bearing with me, and please don’t leave. Because I’m not.